I am so socially awkward its not even comical. When I'm in a room with people I know and know they like me back, I'm funny, I tell stories, I chatter with the masses. But in group situations that I don't know and don't feel comfortable...well its a different story. I am quiet, I sit by myself, sometimes I just go to the bathroom so I can feel like I'm alone for a real reason.
I was never like this in college, I was always the life of the party.
I don't feel like I have low self esteem, but maybe I do. Maybe thats why I can't chat away at a party.
Sometimes I feel like people judge me because I'm a stay at home mom and I don't work. I have hobbies outside of the kids but I don't have time for them a lot.
I feel like other blogging moms would be a totally awesome outlet. But then I get self conscious, my blog doesn't have that many followers. What if everyone starts talking about followers and fan bases and stats and I'm just like "50 views a day!" and they all laugh "oh 50? Yeah I was getting that when I was just blogging about my kids shit"
In my logical mind, I know that the lovely ladies that blog would include me. Give me a warm reception, and understand my feelings of insecurity when you walk into a room full of women that already "know" eachother
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