Lost Pictures not memories

Last night I took Carson to see the Croods and it reminded me of that first mothers day I enjoyed with him. A lot has changed in the last 4 years. From pregnancy to infant to not being able to get pregnant to having a toddler and a baby to now, a child and a toddler.

I think back along those first mothers day's and I remember a little bit. I had pretty severe post partum depression during Carson's first year. Last night as we waited for our movie we ran into the Apple store and I asked about getting my pictures off my MacBook because it died a few months ago and I backed all my pictures up, but now I can't seem to find the external hard drive. Well you can't take a computer and get things off the hard drive if it can't be powered up. Sad.

But then this morning I went to log into my blog account and I was signed in under an old email. An email I used when I was "blogging" after Carson was born. Luckily for me it had been more of a photo dump blog. I reverted all the old written posts back to drafts because they were just terribly sad ranting little diatribes I can't even stand to think that that was me, 3 years ago.

But I was able to salvage about 100 pictures off the blog. Totally making my morning. I've been struggling because I'm upset I lost pictures of our wedding, Carson's first year, my pregnancy, our house (even though I hate that POS life destroyer) His birthday parties and my pregnancy with Oliver.

Luckily a LOT of pictures are on facebook and now that I  have a new computer I have been slowly going through at night and downloading picture after picture into folders trying to make sure everything gets saved properly and some day (soon hopefully!!) I will find that stupid external hard drive (probably as soon as I gather everything off of facebook) and will get those pictures back.

Memories are not lost, I have about 5 HUGE (first time mom moment) photo books. If I get desperate I can scan them and down load them that way.

What a difference years make. The love for my babies is always the same though.

Long Time, No "see"

My goodness its been forever. I've been lurking on the awesome blogs I normally read trying to keep up. But its hard doing it on the phone.

Not a ton has been going on here. I'm 6 weeks into my new job in sales, specifically car sales and while I'm horrible at knowing stuff about actual cars, I actually didn't flop all that bad in my first month. Selling 5 cars and the goal for the month was 8. So not to shabby.

I really have come to realize that for the most part, its a really boring job. We don't get a ton of clients coming in the door and for the most part, its a hard sell.

For the most part I enjoy my job. I miss my boys especially when its slow and I'd rather be home with them then "wasting" my day. This crazy gorgeous PNW weather is not helping my fever to be home and be outside with my babies.


Speaking of my babies! Carson starts soccer in a couple weeks!!! I can't wait for tiny cleats and shin guards. This is just a soccer class once a week for 6 weeks to get them ready for summer soccer! Now that is what I am excited about!!

Oliver started walking a couple weeks after his first birthday I'm really proud of him. He runs now and is always into things (I forgot I didn't like the into things stage!) I can actually hear him "talking" in his crib.


Until later....I'm so glad to be back to blogging. I've really missed this.