Our first week home

Well we haven't been home a true week yet. We came home last wednesday in the morning. But Ollie is a week old.

Its been an amazing week, very hormonal though. I've been having moments of sadness. I came home and Carson was super lovey and I could tell he missed me. But then the next day he was mad at me, he wouldn't talk to me, wouldn't listen to me, wouldn't hug me.

That was the hardest part.

Next day he was better, he loves Oliver, when I bring Ollie out first thing in the morning, Carson checks him over, gives him kisses and goes back to playing.

I am a total basket of hormones though. Nothing serious, just some weepies. Not from sadness, but just....overwhelmed some moments. Overwhelmed with love for my boys, love for Chris. Overwhelmed some moments when Carson needs me and Ollie needs me, torn.

Over all the last week has been amazing! We are so lucky to have 2 wonderful boys, I'm so lucky to have such an amazing husband that has been great taking care of all of us. He's been letting me sleep in while he and Carson hang out.

I'm so lucky that Ollie has been such a good sleeper, going in 3 hour stretches at night and 2ish hours during the day. He's a really happy baby, and holding him is like going back in time, to holding Carson. I can't believe that in 2 years he'll be just like his big brother.

Its been a week of ups and downs, but the downs are few and far between. Its true what they say, the transition from one child, to two is much harder than from zero to one child.

The weepies have been getting better. Today was my first day home with both boys and it was scary but we survived and I think we did pretty awesome =)

My confidence is slowly coming back. Its not like I didn't have any confidence I could do this whole 2 kids thing, but last night Chris ran our redboxes back and took Abby for a walk, I gave Carson a bath and Oliver hung out in his bouncy chair in the bathroom. Little victories like that, make me realize not only can I do it. I can do it and then some. I don't do bath time generally, but with Chris hopefully traveling more this year for work. I need to know I can do it with both boys and have it be in a "safe" environment. Had it been "to hard" Chris would have been home as soon as he could.

Overall, its been an amazing week. I'm filled with so much love for my family.