I've been blowing up facebook....

With updates for how much longer until we find out the sex of our Bean tomorrow....its 19 hours by the way.

I have so many weird emotions finding out tomorrow.

I'm scared. Scared that if its a boy, I will feel a pang of saddness for not getting that mother daughter relationship with my own daughter. I am scared that those feelings will show through in our gender reveal photos and video. But I highly doubt that. I wanted girl so desperately when I was pregnant with CB, and the moment, I found out he was a boy. I was over joyed.

I'm excited. For me, finding out the sex makes it truly real. We can use the baby's name (which we will NOT be sharing till birth day) Once we see the big human looking baby in there will be amazing. I'm still so tiny that its ridiculous and I don't "feel" pregnant.

I'm nervous. Mainly because we haven't seen the Bean since August and we'll have our camera going in the ultrasound room....what if something is wrong with the baby?

So there it is. My feelings. I can't wait though! 19ish hours to go